aku ingin..

dicintai.

diperhatikan.

dimanja.

dipeluk.

disayang-sayang.

semuanya!!!

sounds like a dream eh?

however, I believe there will be a man who can be my partner. my lover. my love

apa sih arti “jaga dong hati aku..” ?

kalau ternyata kamu masih bisa untuk tidak merasakan apapun ketika membuatku menangis sedih.

#commonbulshit #relationshit #mindflow

single and not being threatened by his bad attitudes

or

stand still because of the needs of being loved

sounds so desperate. not like me.

what kind of oleh oleh is this! fuuuuuu~

:: ditengah badai imajinasi futuristik yang serba negatif tentang kehidupan suami-istri di masa yang akan datang ::

“mas, I have poisonous mind deh”

“apa itu?”

:: well, I had two options: 1) tell him (all the stupid-bad forecast/assumption/paranoid); or 2) not ::

“aku mau punya anak kucing yang matanya bulaat warnanya cokelat!”

and next conversations went very well..

“nanti mas cariin, tapi ee nya dibuang sendiri yaa..”

…

… di mobil pas jalan pulang

mas: “kalo nyium bau kamu rasanya aku pengen paru-paru aku ngga ada ujungnya biar baunya ga usah aku keluarin lagi.”

gw: *kipitkipit buntut*

my current fav song recently. not only because of its catchy music, but also interesting choice of words. haha. I feel like… “gw banget iniiih!”

All I ever wanted was the world
I can’t help that I need it all
The primadonna life, the rise and fall
You say that I’m kinda difficult

Beauty queen on a silver screen
Living life like I’m in a dream
I know I’ve got a big ego
I really don’t know why it’s such a big deal, though

When you give I want more more
I wanna be adored, cus I’m a Primadonna Girl.

Would you do anything for me?
Buy a big diamond ring for me?
Would you get down on your knees for me?

eventhough I this kind of behavior is fading away now.. but deep inside, I know I was/am totally still have it.

- primadonna mind.

I hate the smell of affair.

baunya aja udah bikin muak, apalagi kalo liat/tau orang-orang yang “melanggar komitmennya” terhadap pasangan dengan bercinta dengan yang lain. *puke.

mau nikah lagi kek. mau diem-diem selingkuh kek. mau sewa berbayar kek.

go to hell! I don’t like it.

*membayangkannya saja udah bikin nangis*

bahkan cuma baca berita yang seperti itu aja udah bisa mendidihkan darah gw pengen memaki.

well, I am not a saint nor am I an angel.

I don’t think as a human, I could ‘swing’ my partner as my desire told me to. like many people told this kind of condition (can’t stand with one partner or bisexual) as “so likely human being and human behaviour”.

justru lah karena manusia harusnya pemikiran dan tindakan tidak hanya se-ujung tanduk nafsu. we are waaaay more than that. blah.

as a sane human, I commited to myself that I don’t wanna do that.

…and I hope my future partner won’t make whatever kind of scenes I hate and make me sick.

oh my dear God.. please forgive my bad-past behaviour.

I wanna be better person…